Saturday, December 4, 2010

Mad

I am mad. Angry. Pissed off. Ticked!

I do NOT like being lied to.

I really do not like the game my mind plays, once I have realized it.
I knew the truth the whole time. But I didn't trust my gut. I wanted to believe the better story.

It's not really what the lie was about. It is the fact that something was hidden. And now... what else is being hidden? What can my mind conjure up? Oh.... that hurts. A major sucker punch in the gut. I feel like I got the wind sucked out of me.

Anger & Pain. Back and forth. Teetering....tottering of my heart. Do I scream or do I cry?

Yes, life will go on. In the grand scheme of things, it really is not that big of deal.
But what led up to it? Why didn't I see that? And what does that mean... that it was hidden.

The door has been opened.... and the hallway is long & dark....

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